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Temporary Discomfort

I got my temporary lower bridge last week. It is a strange feeling to have something foreign in my mouth. Despite having had all kinds of weird apparatuses (I really feel like the plural of apparatus should be apparati, but apparently it’s not) in my younger days, I can’t say I welcomed the introduction of this piece.

These past few days have been filled with anxiety. First, I wondered why I thought it was a good idea to even get a temporary, when I could have just kept wearing my slightly broken lower bridge until we decided what to do. Because we still haven’t decided whether to fix the existing one or make a whole new one.

If you’ve ever had braces, or any kind of dental device, you know it takes some getting used to. This one is pretty snug, but there are a few points that seem to be pressing against my gums unpleasantly. One edge is rubbing at the crease where my lip meets my gum, causing a sore. Of course it’s the weekend so I can’t just go in and have him sand down that piece. When I try to eat with it, there’s this unpleasant squishing feeling as it mushes against my gums with every bite.

It’s bringing back memories of my younger days when I had to wear these kinds of things all the time. The mild taste of acrylic, the dull ache of pressure when I first put it in. The nagging sores where the edges rub. I must have much less patience now, because it’s all I can do to keep it in my mouth the whole day.

I know that if I can just bear through these first few days I will get used to it, as I have gotten used to all the other dental situations in my life. And I try to remember poor George Washington with his uncomfortable dentures, and realize that I am lucky to live in this day and age where my dentist isn’t cobbling together some mix of animal and human teeth for me to wear.

One of GW’s sets of dentures

Another point of anxiety is wondering if I can get my insurance to cover any of this. My dental insurance maxes out at $1500. Which is nice if all you need is one crown, right?

In other news, I started listening to this audiobook:



Ever since I was a very wee lass, I have been terrified of internal organs. It’s a running joke in my family that I can’t even look at an animal heart, much less a human heart, or any other part for that matter. I have had nightmares about being in an operating room and needing to perform surgery on someone or being forced to participate in an autopsy (as the person wielding the knife, not the person on the table).

My fear has lessened as I’ve gotten older, probably thanks to gratuitous violence and gore on TV and in movies. But I am still pretty creeped out at the thought of body parts or of dead bodies. I suppose a great deal of this fear has to do with simply confronting my own mortality. I also suspect there’s a part of it that hearkens back to my earliest days in the hospital and in surgery and that feeling of a loss of control and surrender to the doctors and hospital staff.

So anyway, I’d had my eye on this book for a while and finally got to it. I’m only about three chapters in but so far it is morbidly fascinating and I have not yet had to stop in horror. Perhaps this will help me overcome my fears a little more.


Lunch Break Post

Coming at you live from my car!

Car selfie

I gave myself 25 minutes on the timer to write a quick post. I really want to write more but it’s so easy to make excuses about not having enough time or whatever.

Many of my coworkers insist on working right through lunch. They say they don’t have time to take lunch breaks and so they just eat at their desks and power through. I often feel pressured to do the same, mostly because I don’t want them to think I’m a slacker. But the truth is, my little brain can’t handle working all day long. I need a break.

I often come to a park that is not far from work. Most of the time I just sit in my car and read or write in my notebook. Ok, I also waste time on FB. But whatever I do, I try to get out of the office and give my brain a rest from work thoughts.  Forest bathing, for my lunch hour. You know how I love my trees.

Anyway. So there’s a lot of things I’d like to write about, such as the book I just read (Broken Open, by Elizabeth Lesser) and the book I am currently reading (The Untethered Soul, by Michael A Singer).

The first book is about how going through traumatic or difficult situations in life gives people the opportunity to go through what she calls a Phoenix Process, where your old self or parts of your old self die and a new and improved self is born. In some ways the book is a bit “woo woo” and heavy on the New Age philosophy, but I can be down with that. I am a proponent of reading books and taking what you like from them and leaving the rest behind. She quotes a lot of Rumi and Thich Nhat Hahn, which is always a plus in my book. The downside I felt with the audiobook was that the narrator had an irritating voice. I was able to listen past that for the most part, but it did get annoying at times.

The second book I just started, but it’s lot about mindfulness meditation practices and why they are good. So when I’m finished with that I’ll have to do a review.

I have two minutes left on the timer so I guess I’ll wrap it up here. Back to work!